Today we are going to divert from my usual beaten path and talk/ discuss Retrogrades. In particularly Shaina's Mercury Retrograde. Normally I do not bring up this area of the chart because it can confuse people but since there are some blocks concerning Shaina's Mercury I thought that this would be a good time to introduce the concept of Mercury Retrograde.
Retrograde Mercury
To begin with there is a threefold phase retrograde process: (1) jumping ahead of them self trying to live the future now (2)in the process of living out the future, experiencing the feelings that she has already been there (3) Repeating in mind the first phase, so that she is actually reliving the looking forward to a future that has already occurred.
If we break down the symbol of Mercury we see that there are in fact 3 elements that make up this symbol: the circle of Spirit resting between the crescent of Soul and the Cross of Matter that together represent the way that we process and understand ourselves. The crescent on top symbolizes the Soul which is actively pouring itself downward into Spirit which in turn strives to express itself outwardly by pushing its ideas downward further into the Cross of Matter. In order for this process to work man must have the understanding that all knowing comes from the highest plane and gradually shifts down to the lowest. When a person is in tune with them self all of his knowledge originates in his Soul and then by penetrating the Spirit seek its outward expression through the actions of the body and their responses to the body of form they sees in the world around them.
When Mercury is in retrograde the natural priority of Soul over Spirit over matter becomes inverted. Individuals are more concerned with the form of life as well as understanding the form in all things around them. Then through their perception of whether such form either fits or contradicts the ideas of form they established in them self through prior incarnations they react in Spirit. Finally when the form is satisfied, and Spirit is activated they achieve contentment with form and allows them self to experience their soul.
Shaina's conscious mind is capable of tapping ideas in the universal consciousness from prior times. She is most likely unaware that she has the ability to do so but what she is aware of is she cannot make others understand all she knows. Because Mercury's Symbol is inverted matter takes precedence over Spirit and Soul. This causes Shaina to be become preoccupied with the form of ideas and this acts like a block to the essence of her knowledge. Her wavelength is slightly different from the rest of society in terms of her mental life. thought processes tend to repeat like an endless record and as a result most of the things she creates are in different shapes or forms, carbon copies of things that she has done. When she speaks she had difficulty project the exact telepathic pictures which convey the meaning of her thoughts. Thus she often feels misunderstood and wonders why others do not always see the things the way that she does. Shaina believes herself more separated from society than a person with a direct motion Mercury might.(retrogrades seen from the Earth appear to be spinning backwards which is where they get the name retrograde) So as a result she tries to desperately develop contact with others to the point that she often overemphasises her ideas till they can actually become an annoyance to those around them. uncomfortable in company, she tries too hard to win the acceptance of others. Still at the slightest hint of rejection she can give up too easily. ultimately Shaina learns that her safety is in growing more detached and impersonal than those people with direct motion Mercury. It can also be called a "coldness" but it is only the vibration of the retrograde Mercury which is obviously disharmonious with direst motion Mercury. Underneath the apparent wall, Shaina is a lot more sensitive than most people would realize. Once the communication barrier is passed there is a tremendous amount of insight that comes out. She should try her best not to make the form of her life fit into the ideas and opinions of others around her. instead find comfort in being grateful for her rather unique way of seeing things. Shaina is an excellent student even though it may take a little longer to grasp the ideas and principles. In the End she'll know the lessons better than everyone else. This happens because she ignores nothing. When it comes to areas of learning she is unwilling to skip over something that leaves her with questions.
Mercury in Capricorn
Shaina is a very deep and weighty thinker. Having once made the mistake she has the ability to understand it on a deep level with a great sense of perspective. She can then approach the source or similar construct again and make it work correctly. In her early years it seemed like she did things the hard way but this helped her to achieve much later on. Self-expression was difficult for her, for she tries too hard to pinpoint her exact meaning. So she only talks about things that are either meaningful, serious, or which represent sobriety. Shaina doesn't live a spontaneous life, for it is easier for her to be more in tune with the purpose of her own thought patterns, than the natural flow of forces in the world around her. In all things she always considers the end result before she will even contemplate the steps that she might take towards achieving it. Thus, she is highly pragmatic and practical. Shaina brought with her into this incarnation the knowledge of how man attains his physical goals in substance, she knows the steps that must be taken to achieve anything substantial, and will draw on this past life knowledge again and again in order to try to convey this to others who are always looking for the easy way out. She is more easily understood later in life after the weight of her thinking has found suitable outlets in traditional society. In the first half of her life she can go through paranoid periods in which she gets bogged down in her own depth. She is more than able to plod herself out. Her greatest difficulties lie in personal relationships as others tend to loose patience with all she is trying to build.
Mercury in the 5th house
Experiencing difficulties in focusing her mental energies she is working on a Karma learning how to make her mental plane productively creative. Curiosity leads her to leap ahead into the multitude of ideas that she would like to create. Yet it is easier to think about creating or telling others what she would like to create than actually carry out her projects completely. She experiences great sexual tensions whose energies are constantly spilling over into her mental centers. Attracted to younger people, she finds it easier to express herself to them. when she is around her own age or older she becomes more inhibited. Shaina is confronted with the conflict between being the actress at the center of her life or being a spectator of it, through observing the actions of others.
She is attracted to reading romantic novels as well as stories of how people reached their greatness but has difficulty putting her knowledge into practice. She often thinks that she should be doing more than she is and this keeps her mind racing further and further into the future while the natural quality of Retrogrades is to look back keeps receiving glimpses of how little she has accomplished in her past. She must learn how to overcome these frustrating mental pictures which keep impeding her in all that she thinks she could be. Some are inclined to shy away from the opposite sex, as childhood problems are reprojected into individuals of the opposite sex in their present and their future.In addition there is the tendency to project personal childhood inadequacies onto her own children. The Karma in this placement is to be able to understand how to organize and create the present from all that Shaina has been conscious to in the past.
Putting it all Together:
Even the Mercury Retrograde profile pointed out the difficulties that Shaina had as a child when it came to Perception and communication. It also reiteraltes Shaina's famous Leo/ Cap struggle within herself. At least this gives some more insight as to why she had to go through this and what she needed to take from her life experience and apply it to her "now".
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